KAYA?

May 24, 2008

Nakita mo noon kung paano ako umibig sa kanya

At nakita ko rin kung paano mo mahalin ang iba

Naroon ka noong mga panahong ako’y nasasaktan dahil sa pambabalewala niya

At naroon din naman ako nung ika’y gulung gulo na sa kanila

Sinabi mo sa akin noon na tama na

Na kailangan ko nang tapusin ang anumang nararamdaman ko sa kanya

At sinabi ko na rin sa iyo na sobra na

Ang mga pagpapakatanga mong ginawa para sa iba

 

Pero ngayon…

Makita mo rin kaya ang mga damdaming nakikita ko sa iyo?

Mananatili ka pa rin bang nariyan kung malalaman mo?

Sasabihin mo rin kaya sa akin ang mga katagang sasabihin ko sa iyo?

o baka naman…

   Ako lamang ang makakita

   Ako lamang ang manatili

   At ako lamang ang magsabi

dahil

   sa iba mo pa rin nakikita

   sa iba mo pa rin nais manatili

   at sa iba mo pa rin nais magsabi

 

 

12:30AM 

29/08/06

 

  
 

 

Bakit? Paano?

Eto na naman ako, humahabi ng mga salitang

inaalay sa isang taong walang kamalay malay

Sabi kasing walang pinipiling oras o panahon

ang isang damdaming umuusbong sa puso ng lahat ng tao

sabi kasing hindi naman kailanagn na magpaliwanag pa sa iba

na hindi na nila kailangn pang malaman ang mga bakit at paano

subalit, sa mga panahong gaya nito,

nararamdaman kong dapat maiparating ko

sa kanlyang walang kamalay malay ang mga bakit at paano

 

Nais kong malaman ng walang malay na ito

na hindi ko siya balak gamitin lamang

Hindi para lamang pagtakpan ang sinasabi nilang "AKING" nararamdaman

Wala talaga silang nalalaman

Sapagkat akin namang nararamdaman na hindi ko talaga siya sasaktan

Nais ko ring iparating na kung anuman ang aking damdamin

hindi ito humihiling na sana’y ito maramdaman niya rin

 

At para sa iyo na walang malay

Nais ko lamang na iyong malaman

na masaya ako kapag masaya ka

     walang bakit…

     walang paano…

     basta ganon…

     TAPOS.

 

12:55AM

29/08/06 

paghabol

May 14, 2008

makakahabol ka pa kaya kung

ako’y matagal nang nauna sa’yo?

 

- kaya nga hinihiling ko na sana’y bagalan mo

dahil alam kong kahit lumipad ako mahihirapan akong

hanapin ang daang tinahak mo

 

ngunit paano kung sa aking pagbagal aking maisip na tumigil

at huwag nang tumuloy pa?

 

- akin din sanang ipakikiusap na kung sana’y tumigil ka man

ay iyong matutunang maghintay dahil sa aking pagdating sa iyong kinaroroonan

sinisiguro ko sa iyo na sasabayan na kita

 

ngunit matagal na akong naghihintay

 

- ….darating ako, pangako.

Kismet

hardest things with goodbye

you know what are the hard things with goodbye?

I’ll share it with you

1. The fact that it is inevitable. It is a general knowledge that we are all going to leave this earth and that one day, we  have to say goodbye to somebody we love. It is just hard to live with them everyday while knowing that time would come that we would leave thwm.

2. Having to say it. It is just difficult to say goodbye especially when you have to do it earlier than others must and when you know that the people you are leaving are not even ready or even willing to let you go.

3. Knowing that if goodbyes pains and kills you, it also does the same to those you are going to leave.

4. Goodbye is not just a word. It is a process we all have to live and deal with. It does not end once you said goodbye. Because after you said that, you know you will have to learn to live a life without those people you left, without those people you have learned to care for, those you have loved and cherished. Without those who have become and still are part of your life.

some transcripts

May 6, 2008

i have this friend whom i constantly communicate with through e-mail

we talked about a lot of things, we talked about everything actually

from our simple day to day routines, to our plans for our future, we share with each other quotes we’ve heard or read somewhere, our favorite songs,  our favorite TV shows, movies and books.

but most of the times, we talked about, what else but, LOVE

the painful kind of love though

in our friendship, the very "best" thing that we really have in common is our love lives.

we both share the same sentiments about love

and in one of our conversations, i wrote this certain piece that i would very much wanted to share to everyone, hope you’ll like it

 

"i always wish

i could be someone’s somebody

be a part of their everything

and be loved as i have loved

but always i end up

to be just someone

who’s happened to be confused with anything

and whose love is taken forgranted

why can i not be loved

when i have so much love to give

 

lucky is the man i love and loves me back

because i may not be perfect

but i mastered the art of love

perfectly"